life is a chain...

It is kinda complicated to accept infront of your parents, lots of the things you do... Specially when you know that they make a big deal of it.  maybe this sound familiar... 
"look for a job", "do this, do that", "my house, my rules" this are some of the phrases i've been listening  to everyday...
When i was still a child i remember my mom saying:  "you are underage, so you do what i want..."  When I became old enough and got my ID, a remember her saying: "when you get to university, you'll do whatever you want..." When i got there, she changed her phrase to" whenever you work and pay for your things, you rule mean while I do..." So i got a job and started to pay for everything i needed. So she noticed and then she said: "you still live in my house... my house, my rules, you'll rule when you get married".. guess what... i got married and know it s not my mother, but my housband saying: "remember you are married and you can't do whatever you want..."  Things really didn't go good in my marriage so i got divorced... went back to moms house.. and i still can't rule remember the phrase!!!  yeah this is house life works...

The truth is we have the  rights to choose what we wanna do. But it is also true, that our parents know what is best for us! I strongly believe that the best thing you can do is live alone... work for your needs, be independent and learn the hard way.

Now it doesn't end there... have you been in the position where your parents tell you to get a job urgently!  and it is not that you don't look for vacancy but you can;t find them, and if you do you keep waitting for them to call you?... Your parents have told you, you should move out and live alone... but how are you going to do that without a job? where a re you onna go, with no money?  have you been or are you here?  what did you do? or... what would you do..

la vida es asi

La verdad quiero ayuda soy una joven que ha sido bastante recatada, debido a las creencias religiosas. sin embargo, me considero de que muy en el fondo soy algo aventurera. Hay cosas que son muy liberadas y me asustan pero que a la vez me llaman la atencion. Lo mismo con los chicos, me atraen los que definitivamente no me convienen. Me gustan los chicos malos o misteriosos. Y la verdad no se como hacer cambiar esta situacion. Recientemente sin querer lo trate. Y creo que voy de mal en peor. ahora ya no son chicos malos lo que busco sino que menores.. lo peor es que este chico realmente me gusta! Pero es un desordenado de primera, vive con sus padres, empieza a saber lo que es trabajo y si no me equivoco no tiene sentido de dependencia.  Pero me encanta que es especial en su modo... es  imperfectactamente perfecto. 
Creo que lo que yo deberia de buscar son por lo menos 5 anos mayores, que ya no vivan con sus padres, seguros de si mismos, con estabilidad economica, social y emocional. Pero la verdad es que esos, son los que menos me rodean... Yo tambien actualmente vivo con mi madre, pero estoy visperas de cambiar eso para madurar un poco mas...
Soy una nina mimada que no quiere darse cuenta que va para vieja y que la vida no es tan facil como la pintan. Es un paso que otros dan mucho antes que yo y otros todavia ni piensan en hacerlo..